INDONESIA !!

"Indonesia Raya, Merdeka Merdeka, Hiduplah Indonesia Raya"

why can't we see?
why can't we listen?

I better move back. I ain't a loser. I am tired with my surroundings, you.

Went Away

I do hate lights,

They won't give me Happiness.

Confession, DM.

You never tired to greet me 'Good Morning'
even I never greet you back
You never even bored to say 'How's today?'
even I always ignoring you

Remember the day you told me you're gonna be the one
I said no,
You are not the one I want
You're just too good.

Thought I'm gonna be good without you,
I'm wrong
My day is used to be filled by you
but this anguish, selfishness defeat me
and I have to confess,
I miss you.
I miss you.

Cam-guy.

Let the affection grows old,
Grows Grey, Unclear.
Didn't you fell?
or you kinda Deaf!
Don't you know, being a-selfish-torture-human isn't as easy as you see
Throwing the tears, Tortured-body
It's not for another body. It's for yours.
Only.

please, Sign me.

I'm begging you, Hey Cam-guy

Photoshoot (re-upload)

play, play

Notice.

Someday, you'll notice me.

I stay, you move.

un-prepared vacation.

Last week i did a kinda vacation with all of the neighbourhood. Seriously, i didn't feel excited about this, don't know why.

yep, traffic jam and those kind of 'mabuk darat'. yeah I hate them

finally, arrived at Villa Baladegana Outbond

Excited at first. Cool place I thought. But suddenly, Dang! someone told me that we moved to Villa Semar.

yeah, honestly, it looks jerk ! not cool. negative.

but as the time goes by, I was trying to comfort my self in here.

Swimming, was the first thing I did with my sister and others.

Then, we did sight-seeing to Baladegana Outbond.

and the second day, The outbond time! yeay, no, actually I didn't do all the games hahaha

p.s : Those pictures were taken by and with my friend's camera. Mine was dead. The battery went out, my false.

She is,

I am in love with this kid, seriously !

GROWING UP !

They really need to grow up.

Save them from the children exploitation.

They are us.

you know what I mean with 'You' in here.

I really need to re-arrange my life, it's been messed up since knowing you.

We are haunted

like thousand needles in my head

like a dagger stab my lungs

in this November rain,

I, the leaves, the wet solid

chairs, the place we used to have,

now it seem like utopia,

Unreal.

Smells of rain surrounding me

or is it smells of you?

make me calm, relax, satisfaction

let me take back my life

give me your sunshine, You Dear God.

This restless body,

this suffered face,

this weak fingers,

hanging by your thread.

Don't know where Iam

I need you right beside me.

Kalian boleh bilang saya : galau.

aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yang tak terbayar
tak terkira
aku manusia
melihat merasa mendengar
apa kau tau itu ?
aku bukan mereka
aku bukan dia
atau pun kamu

aku bebas
tapi tak merdeka
benar bukan?
mengapa aku tak merdeka?
merdeka buatku, jika aku memenangkan pertarungan hatiku, hati engkau dan dia.
aku bebas
tapi tak merdeka
karna dia kalahkan aku
aku pecundang

aku mengkhianati hati?
ya begitu adanya
entah terbuat dari apa otakku ini
melihat sesuatunya begitu sempit.

aku melawan
aku terlawan
posisi yang sulit
rumit
aku sendiri tak tahu apa ini

yang aku tahu pasti
aku akan terus hidup dalam kebohongan
tanpa arah pasti
tanpa tujuan pasti
tidak tidak, tujuan ku pasti :
kamu.
ya, kamu.
bukan yang lain
titik.

dia maya, tak nyata.

Hari itu
Hari itu
Dia begitu bahagia
Aku pun begitu..
Hari itu
Hari itu
Dia nyata
Aku hidup..

Kembali
Kembali
Ke hari itu
Dimana semua nyata
Semua tertawa

Kembali
Kembali
Ke hari itu
Garis senyum
Sosok jenaka

Hari ini
Hari ini
Kosong
Sepi

Hari ini
Hari ini
Menunggu kembali
Menangis kembali

Hari ini
Hari ini
Mengkhianati hati
Menyeruak

Hari ini
Hari itu
Berbeda
Selamanya..
Selamanya..
Kamu, maya.
Tidak nyata.

apology is not an elegy.

Saturday, 17.20, evening
i call this red dying evening
the Beloved had gone without saying goodbye
the Beloved met her Creator and left me with silence
i got down on her knees and hope it was just a dream.
No. This was REALITY.
She laid down with her pale faceoh God, i couldnt stand to see her face.
She wanted me to be SOMEONE
SOMEONE who is useful for everyone, reaching my future.
She didnt want to see me cry
but oohh this pain was too hard,
i couldnt stop this tears.MOM,
i know i cant be your best son,
iam regret with every mistakes that i did to you.
but i have my own way to show that I LOVE YOU.
I never forget 18 years getting along with you
I never forget YOUR SMILE, YOUR ANGER and surely YOUR LOVE
and i never forget the day you slept away..
I hope i can be your best son and you will smile when i reach my future.
I'll always love you ,mom
i do.
*this post i wrote for my friend name M.T. Ridho and for his Beloved mother.
thanks for giving me such a great lesson about how important the family is and realize me to love my parents because we cant get the chance back.

yes, you called it stupid or what the hell you say!

have you ever treated like a jerk?

Everyday in your life, you're haunted by another sad story.

And crying all night long, just to make it a lil bit obvious.
Maybe i'm not the only one who feels those situation. Almost every day in my life i've been treated like a JERK! This just because i dont even have GOOD IN MY APPEARANCE.
THEM, who thinks that their selves are PERFECT. They never know and NEVER WANT TO KNOW how suck to be my self.
how does it feel being different from them, how does it feel being jeered everyday on whole of my life and never want to know how much tears that out from this eyes just to regret my destiny.THEY DONT KNOW. Even care.From now on, i put my trust in me, NOT YOU EVEN THE WORLD.The Lord had created me like today and i'm never regret for it.This stupid note isnt wrote for showing my sadness or what the hell you say.Enough for being Loser, buddy!Enough for TREATING PEOPLE LIKE ME AS A USELESS THING.
STOP THINKING THAT YOU'RE PERFECT.

yes, a rhyme!

when everything is getting older

all i wanna do is gather

when everything is getting darker

all i wanna do is shouting them louder

when world is fulled with riot

iam feel like an idiot

when everything is going crazy

i need you to make it easy

where are the liars gone?where are the fakers flown?

Iam alone and done.

you know, it was totally over.

it was 02.00 am

and it was raining

I listened to our favorite songs.

Remember when we are together

shouted them and made a riot, like an idiot.

I like the way you stare at me,

I like the way you smile at me,

I like the way you shout at me,

but i dont even like the way you breaking everything in the pieces.

Sounds so pity, but it's true.

When we are separated,all i feel is desperated.

Because iam not ready to be aparted.

Iam not.

Iam over it.

Post in-the-late-night-mind.

Yeah yeah you say goodbye

and i can't deny

i'm going to die

so i'm asking why

and you answer with lie

Iam starting to cry

and i believe that you're guy

i walk alone

no one to care

rain fall down heavily

just like my tears

i shout loudly

you make me ugly

i walk through the alley

and wait for you baby

put my headphone

i know i'm alone

and i think is done.

randomamamamamma

Aisya said : "masya ALAY"

Saya Tidak Takut !

"hey Raja Jalanan! Saya tantang kamu dengan Skuter Matik saya!"

ASAP!

i do love kids!

I want my childhood back.
Unsinful.

MEDITASI

Beri saya cahaya! MEDITASI MEDITASI!

Saya tak ingin di khianati!

The Pianoman.

"I admire you and your piano-playing"

This is what i see through Saosin.

Saosin.
i dont know where i have to start to write all of my stuff in my brain about them.
Like everybody says, the shoes is always together with the shocks, yes Saosin and I just like that. Saosin is one of my big influence in making my music, and Saosin has made my personality right now. Iam growing up with them, Saosin.
So let's get started,
Saosin is an American Post-hardcore band from Newport Beach, California, formed in 2003.
Anthony Green, he was the first vocalist of Saosin, but he left the band because Saosin joined to a commercial label, Capitol. Now Saosin are Cove Reber (Vocalist), Chris Sorenson (Bassist), Beau Burchell (Guitarist), Justin Shekoski (Guitarist), Alex Rodriguez (Drummer).
The name of Saosin, comes from Chinesse (Xiao Xin) means 'be carefull'.



Website :
http://www.myspace.com/saosin
http://www.saosin.com


because music is not about being uptodate, but this is about the taste.

If you keep asking me I'll melt away in the summer air.

It won't hurt half as much and I'll beg for you to stop it now.

If you keep asking me I'll melt away in the summer air.

It won't hurt half as much and I'll beg for you to just tell me something.

I Can Tell -Saosin

Introducing my new music studio!

Haloooo, ini studio musik bapak saya!

namanya RUM'S 41 (Rumah Musik 41)

adanya di Jalan Raya Pondok Kacang Rt.001/Rw.03 no.29 Pondok Kacang barat.

(depan perum.Graha Pondok Kacang)

kalo mau booking, call : 021 99857837 or 08161438673

Thanks!