Saturday, March 21, 2015

Aren't we supposed to be like this?

// We're craving for the super qualified discussion.
No, we never talk about what common people like to talk about. Been there, done that.
We always get something to learn from each; more than I could learn from school back then.
I adore your intelligence.
and I guess, that is more than enough. //

My one-and-only-One Ok Rock-phonecase.

So here it goes..
Recently I have been having tons of free time, and I've been struggling to find something to be done.
Scrolling down and up my Instagram timeline, and just saw an account for selling modified phone cases.
A bit too expensive but I know, it is worth it. After all, price defines.

And there you go, idea came up. I thought of making it my own instead of buying. Searching on Youtube for some preferences and I got tons of tutorial videos of D.I.Y Phone case. It's super easy! and cheap, obviously.
Take a peek!


Not A Big Deal.

A comfortable distance.
Slowly moving to an unbeatable feeling inside.
The lights he gave her.
Slowly turning her into gold.
With every single move he makes,
Slowly spinning her world.

She's been growing with those. Something you don't even care about.
Something people might throw.
It's not big deal. But a whole world for her.

She wishes for an open door. She wishes for a miracle.
Sky is too high.
While we're thinking too slow.

She wouldn't be there. Wish he stays right there.

Tuesday, February 24, 2015

I'm Officially 24; a self reminder.

"...happy birthday uthay!"
"...selamat ulang tahun, ti!"
"..thay, happy birthday yak!"
"...Hi Uti. Selamat Ultah ya!"

                     Got tons of birthday messages. I'm glad to announce I'm turning 24.
                     It's quite different this year. 
                     I usually get a late-night surprise only from the families.
                     Not for this year, 
                     I got a surprise from my most favorite human beings in this universe;
                          #TCCTZ 

It wasn't that successful they said, cause I actually could guess it right away. Despite of those silly things, I have to say I was the happiest person on earth that day. These people are more than just the friends. We've been knowing and getting along together for more than 10 years, and definitely still craving for another years. We've been talking about every little tiny thing. The silliest and even the most complex topic, you name it.
I learn a lot from them. More than that I could learn at school back then.
Thank you my #TCCTZ. You girls are my pride!

Anyway, I'm turning 24. I need to make a self-reminder.
24. getting older, obviously.
I've been attending uncountable friends' wedding invitations.
I've been asked a you-know-what questions every single day.
I've been compared to the other 24-year-age human beings.
I've been asked to tell my accomplishments.
and other silly questions, which I still need to find the answers myself.

But then, I'm glad I'm 24.
with all the accomplishments I have.
yeah not that great I know, but at least I'm doing it at my best.

I am so ready for the upcoming challenges.
Bright days are coming. Life, health, career, love, and love (did I mention it twice?)
I always believe You will answer my prayer.
Terima Kasih, Allah. Bismillah!

Say Hello to #tcctz!


A friend of mine; @rezarhtm sent me this pict. Thankies!
    

Monday, February 24, 2014

23

I know it's strange
You won't believe me
'cause it doesn't seem could be that easy.

everything you do seems worthy
and could we call it destiny?
Let me be your 23.
23.

I swear I'm gonna set you free
through our memories
Let us build memories
through the overseas

I swear I'm gonna be alright with your companies.







Slow and Steady by Of Monsters and Men

 
The lights go out, I am all alone
All the trees outside are buried in the snow.


I spend my night dancing with my own shadow
and it holds me and it never lets me go.
  


  I move slow and steady
But I feel like a waterfall
Yeah, I move slow and steady
Past the ones that I used to know
..



My dear old friend, take me for a spin
Two wolves in the dark, running in the wind



I'm letting go, but I've never felt better
Passing by all the monsters in my head




And I'm never ready
'Cause I know, I know, I know
That time won't let me
Show what I want to show


Friday, November 29, 2013

One OK Rock; I was obviously in heaven!

So, how can I start this post?
In the moment I'm writing this post, my biggest smile is still hanging! Let me take you back to the time where I didn't even know who the hell is One OK Rock, whopps! I mention it! Yes, this post actually tells about how do I finally fall in a deeper deeper love to them!
At the first, I'm totally blind with the Japanese bands. I never do browsing, or even so curious about them. But, the miracle is happening to me! Let's say a friend of mine, name Bambang Widodo (-- he prefers to be called as Ibeng! haha), gave me a youtube link. Like for the first time, I didn't put any attention to those things. He kept forcing me to well at least listen to their songs. Finally, after a-self-war, I decided to listen to their songs. Clock Strikes was the first song that I heard and made me in love at that moment. I'm not exaggerating, but this is so true, that I feel connected!
Starting from that time, I feel like I was possessed by One OK Rock, I couldn't stop listening to their songs, searching for their info, and everything.
On that day, I saw an advertisement, telling that One OK Rock will held a concert in Jakarta! I was stunned: like a stone! I know that I am probably just a newbie fan of OOR. But, I  couldn't stop myself not to go to an online ticket seller and... bahahahak! I just bought it!
24th November was the day. Waiting for the day to come was just like killing me softly! I kept counting.. and that hurts! I couldn't  waiting for the day to come.
After the long waiting, like finally this is the day!!
I will meet them live! The show started at 8pm, but I arrived at 1pm. You think that I'm overreacting? you're wrong! those people came at 10 am. Rad!
The show was.... ah! I couldn't explain it in words! I feel like that was such a heavenly way to die - nope. I take it back, I don't want to die that soon.
Again, it was totally the most wildest show I've ever seen. Taka, Toru, Ryota and Tomoya did it! And when the show was end, I barely moved my legs. I didn't want to leave the stage. Let me see them for twice, third, fourth or even for the rest of my life!
All I know, I was having overloaded happiness, like I was in Heaven because of One OK Rock!
I went home safely, had the most comfortable sleep. And until now, it's a bit hard to move on from the boys. 
The show was worth the wait. Wish they get a plan to probably come back here.
I'll be on the first row. See you soon!





Getting myself through Expressionism!


Death of Salesman (1949)
Expressionism applied in Death of Salesman play by Arthur Miller
The Concerns of the Author
Writers of expressionist plays are almost always revolutionary in one sense or another; that is, they see very clearly what they feel is wrong with the world and want us in the audience to be aware of it. They look at the dark and repressive side of things. Repression can come from many sources. (A Student Guide to Play Analysis’ by David Rush page 218).
We can be our own worst enemies. We are trapped by deep feelings of guilt or evil and also historical pattern that we can’t escape. Death of Salesman shows that Willy Loman (the main character) struggling around achieving the American Dream, for he believed that once he had achieved it, he would become highly regarded, "well-liked", powerful, and successful and finally, find happiness and peace. However, in reality, reaching and achieving the American Dream is not easy as it is. It is important to differentiate between idealism and reality. This is what is happened in Willy Loman, he has an inner conflict with his own self and finally he becomes the victim of his own dreams and obsession with success. He was unable to accept the difference between his dreams and his own life, which haunt him with a sense of failure; and lead him to his suicide.
WILLY: (talking to himself)  “Yes, sir, eighty thousand miles – Eighty-two thousand”
“Don’t get your sweater dirty, Biff! What a simonizing job! No kiddin’, Biff, you got date? Wonderful!”
Those parts of dialogue show how obsesses Willy Loman to his own dreams and success. He talks to himself and imagines that Biff will become success and achieve the American Dream, however, in fact, all of those dreams end up being nothing but lies.
Some element of society traps us. Death of Salesman premiered in 1949, a decade of unprecedented consumerism and technical advances in America, besides that, the society started to use American Dream in their daily life. For some people, ‘owning a beautiful house, means they have achieved the American Dream’ (American Ways; an Introduction to American Culture), and after they can achieve it, they will be highly regarded. This is the reason why Willy Loman really struggles to reach his dreams, because he is surrounded by the societies who use American Dream as their measurement of success and he is also trapped by it. 
BIFF:              “they’ve laughed at Dad for years, and you know why? Because we don’t belong in this nuthouse of a city! We should be mixing cement on some open plain or – or carpenters. A carpenter is allowed to whistle!”
Those parts of dialogue show the situation and condition of the life of Willy Loman’s family. They just live in a small apartment when the others live in their own housel; and that makes Willy Loman becoming a victim of his own dreams and obsession with success.

The Point of View of the Author
Expressionism takes subjectivity as fast as it can go. The author does more than simply take sides but actually takes us inside the mind of one person and shows us the world as that person would perceive it. When we speak of having a subjective position, we mean that we are in the middle of the experience, seeing it through only one set of eyes and thus getting only a limited idea of what’s happening. (A Student Guide to Play Analysis’ by David Rush page 185 and 219)
In Death of Salesman, Miller tries to take us inside the mind of Willy. Miller wants to shows us how the world is through Willy Loman’s eyes and mind. In that time, as we know, the society started to use American Dream; they also have high measurement of success. Miller wants to make us see how huge Willy Loman’s dreams, obsessions and future expectations through Willy’s behavior which finally led him to a sense of failure and his suicide. Miller wants us to show how fake the American Dream; because in reality, reaching and achieving the American Dream is not easy as it is. It is important to differentiate between idealism and reality.

The Comprehensibility of the World
For the expressionist writer, the world may be crazy, unfeeling, and destructive, but somehow, in a short topsy-turvy manner, it does have some sort of logic to it. Once you see the world through the subjective eye of the window character, your challenge is to understand what that attitude is. Many expressionist plays begin in what might be called the normal, or objective, world, in which we get enough clues about the central character. (A Student Guide to Play Analysis’ by David Rush page 220)
The play is begun with the description of the situation of the society around Willy Loman’s life. On that time, the society where Willy Loman lives in is a decade of unprecedented consumerism and technical advances in America, besides that, the society started to use American Dream in their daily life. For some people, ‘owning a beautiful house, means they have achieved the American Dream’, and after they can achieve it, they will become highly regarded. As these following sentences describes how the world situation is on that time.
“..As more light appears, we see a solid vault of apartment houses
around the small, fragile-seeming home. An air of the dream dings
to the place, a dream rising out of reality..”

The Construction of the Plot
Sometimes an expressionist play will bounce back and forth between a more normal world and forth between a more normal world and distorted one. (A Student Guide to Play Analysis’ by David Rush page 222). In most of the play, we see Willy Loman struggling with life. But every time he faces a crisis, he retreats into his memories. It can be seen, when Willy was arguing with Biff about ‘whistling in the elevator’, Willy defense himself by using his past memories about his dad.
            BIFF               : “a carpenter is allowed to whistle!”
            WILLY          : “Even your grandfather was better than a carpenter. You never
                                       grew up. Bernard does not whistle in the elevator, I assure you.”
It also can be seen when Willy said to Howard that he was tired to travel and he wanted to work in the town, however Howard refused it.
WILLY          : “God knows, Howard. I never asked a favor of any man. But I was with the firm when your father used to carry you in here in his arms.”
Sometimes the play’s overall pattern is often that of a journey or a quest. The protagonist is trying to discover something that is unclear or missing. In Death of Salesman, Willy is trying to discover and reach the idealism of American Dream for he believed that once he had achieved it, he would become highly regarded, "well-liked", powerful, and successful and finally, find happiness and peace.
Sometimes the agent of action is trying to escape the consequences of a crime and to reach a place of safety. In Death of Salesman, it happens when finally Biff apologizes to Willy and promises that he will change the way he lives by going to some places to look for a job. Willy is so happy to hear that, and then he thinks that he needs to contribute and help Biff in reaching his success. He finally decides to do suicide by crashing his car in order to get insurance fee of himself than the money can be used to help Biff in reaching his success. It is showed that Willy is trying to reach a place of safety by doing suicide. He thinks by doing that, it will change his family’s life into happiness and peacefulness.

The Substance/Texture of the Characters
The characters in expressionist plays are not meant to be lifelike. When they are given names, however, the names often have symbolic associations. Essentially, all that we said about symbolist characters applies equally well to expressionist ones. In Death of Salesman, the names of the main characters have symbolic associations. Willy in Willy Loman is actually the abbreviation of Will He?; it shows the characteristic of Willy who has big dreams and obsessions of success. Loman (Low Man) in Willy Loman represents the low social status of Willy and his family. Besides that, Biff in English means to hit or strike. It shows that, in the play, Biff always has conflict with Willy; he always strikes back at Willy.

The Setting
In a sense, all expressionist plays have the same location: the inside of the central character’s head. Some element in the outside world has driven the central character out of her mind and caused her to escape into hallucinations and distortions. (A Student Guide to Play Analysis’ by David Rush page 226). In Death of Salesman, many scenes take place inside Willy’s head. For example, every time Willy confuses and faces crisis of his life, he directly escape into his hallucinations. He retreats his memories by imagining speaking to his son, Biff.
WILLY: (talking to himself)  “Yes, sir, eighty thousand miles – Eighty-two thousand”
“Don’t get your sweater dirty, Biff! What a simonizing job! No kiddin’, Biff, you got date? Wonderful!”


Tuesday, June 26, 2012

supervision

I'm seeing through the lights
I'm seeing through the shadows
I'm seeing through winds, rains and clouds
seeing through anything..

I called it a Regression


"..a past will always be a past, my dear.."

Saturday, May 26, 2012

In your atmoshphere.

"..Wherever I go, Whatever I do, I wonder where I am and my relationship to you. Wherever you go, Whatever you are.."

Wish you read this. 
away.

Thursday, May 24, 2012

Estare Para Siempre, my mates!




"..no matter what happen, these people will always be my family. Love, laugh and tears will be passed normally. In the weakest point of my life, these people will always give me an overloaded energy.."
 Sincerely,
Nutri Nirwana

Laugh at me? Don't care!

It's been a long time I didn't visit my own blog. Waaaaaaaaaak this semester is the hardest! tons of assignments!!! GOD! 
By the way, I might call this as my new hobby or new habit? AAAAAAAH! whatever it is! You know, the phenomenon of Super Junior, ya well at first I don't really put my attention on it. But SURPRISINGLY, I must confess that I am kinda addicted to SuJu! (I know that you'll laugh at me about this! Don't care! :p) It's funny, or more like to be awkward! Whatever it is, they are just awesome, magnificent, super insane! I can't stop youtube-ing, browsing for their information, and.... yaaaaa I do saving their photos in my mobile phone hahahahahah pssssst!
One of my friend, Delia Fitrananda, is one of the biggest fan of Suju hahahaha she gave me a SuJu's DVD live in Osaka (thank you Deli for the gift!) We just can't stop talking about SuJu in the classroom, canteen IN EVERYWHERE! Well, you might call this too much, but really, trust me, They are fantastic! SUPER SUPER!
Don't care what people say, I am proud to be one of their fans! hihihi
see ya!

Thursday, May 10, 2012

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

little bit too far

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again

However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again

However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you

I will always love you -311

Thursday, April 5, 2012

A guy with flannel shirt: JUMP!

HILARIOUSLY, THIS GUY BOOSTERS MY MOOD! HA-HA-HA



dream itself

Every time my classmate tells about her own students,
Things running on my mind: When will I have my own students?

WHEN?


soon.

just give it try, sir!

I.put.my.expectation.in.a.wrong.guy.
too.high.
too.far

enough.

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Randomly Written

Have been so busy recently! GAAAAH! My days are surrounded by thesis, topic, traffic-jam, and all the things in campus-life.. They're just so ordinary. Wait, have I mentioned about sir DG? HA! DG, this guy comes so in sudden! I know him, but yaaaaa just at glance. I dont really expect that I will gain a friendship with him, but two days ago, he started to mention me and text me through blackberry messenger. HAHA dont know what it is about, but ya well actually he just made my day! hihi:p
HEY GOOD NEWS! My sister is doing training for her job. She has to wake up early morning to go to her training place. Looks awkward, because she's getting used to wake up late. Now everything runs in reverse! Well, my dad and mom are really happy to see changes in my sister. Hope the best for you, Kak! :)
Well nothing so special, I just love to walk my life with all the distractions! Because I believe, behind all the distractions, there will be something unpredictable..
Hope so :)